Kauai Part One

We're running to a store fast, but I wanted to throw some of these on here for Jesse and others. I love you all!! More to come.

A scenic overlook on our way home from 'Anini Beach.

Abby walking in the sand at Tunnels Beach.

The resort pool.

Our resident resort seal.

A room with a view. Yes, this is our view from the balcony.

Okay, sorry this is short and lame and I have no good stories, but I'll add some soon. :)

Infertility

I haven't actually wanted to label this new problem as "infertility", but what else do I call it? The "can't get pregnant" syndrome? I don't know. Jesse and I have been trying to get pregnant for a few months now. I thought it would happen quickly because we got pregnant with Abigail so fast... but that hasn't been the case. I was confused with the first month of negative tests, slightly depressed the second round, numb the third round, in the depths of the despair the fourth month... and then it has cycled through since then. Actually, to be fair, we can throw in a miscarriage before the fourth month. That one almost gave me hope. I apologize to anyone who has announced to me that you're pregnant and I only gave you a half-smile, or if you've talked to me about it and I seem less than interested. I really am truly excited for you. It's just that my heart is breaking at the same time because I want so badly to be in your shoes. After crying for 1 1/2 days, I finally called a doctor today to schedule an appointment. Hoorah. When I was finished crying today, I looked upward and said, "Heavenly Father, I know my trials are nothing compared to what some of my friends are going through... but why did you have to make me such an emotional person that it FEELS like the worst thing in the world?" He just chuckled and said, "I made you that way. So that when you're happy, everyone really knows it. The downside is that when you're sad or upset, everyone knows it." I think He was trying to help me understand that I need to work harder on always being happy. Sorry to the world for seeing me when I'm upset. ;) And thank you to my two girlfriends that have unknowingly been amazing examples to me during this time. I'll tell you who you are later, if you don't already know. I love you dearly. I don't know why I felt the need to post this. I think it's just been going through my head for so long now that I just had to write it down somewhere.
Love to all.

Season for weddings!

We have SO many weddings this summer. But these pics were taken by my adorable sister Maryn at my friend, Nikki Dubois Gray's wedding yesterday afternoon. Just some fun pics to start off the summer! Love you !!

Kenzie, my love, I made this face just for you. I miss your guts! And I need to call you. We had a whole conversation/joke about "Beanogas.com" and "I peed a little" the other night. Oh, I miss you.

My goofy husband.

Oh my sweet girl. Could she be any cuter?

Our new pet!!!

A milk snake! Yay! Okay, totally kidding. I would never purchase one. However, we found out that one is living in the ivy by our front door. We came home from our run last Wednesday (or Tuesday?) and Jesse was sitting on the swing when he exclaimed, "Laur, a snake!" I immediately went into childhood mode and began searching the ivy for a brown snake--but instead I saw the bright pattern of red, black, white, black, red. Yes, the pattern is significant. "Red touch yellow, kill a fellow. Red touch black, friend of Jack." Have you ever heard that? If red touches yellow, it's a venomous coral snake. Aren't we lucky it's only a milk snake? Anyway, we haven't seen it since, but it was cool for a few minutes.

Do you want to know how I got these scars?

WHY SO SERIOUS?

Though to be honest, you can't be serious when you look at this picture. She's too cute. Abby just finished an amazing fruit smoothie (thanks to my dad's amazing smoothie skills) and I couldn't resist the picture.

Love you all!!